I want…Friday 2007 #14

I want to be able to magic my chores away. I wish I could just wave a wand and make all the work be done on its own. Maybe I supervise it a little bit, but I don’t have to actually sit and scrub, pull, haul, etc. Can’t tell I’ve been reading Harry Potter, can ya? We’ve spent the last couple nights working in the yard, killing weeds and cutting up branches that broke off the tree. There’s still lots more to do and once the outdoor stuff is taken care of, there’s still a bunch of indoor stuff to be done. I just don’t have the time or energy to get it all done. By the time I start making progress, the first things I accomplished are already needing to be done again. It’s very demotivating to say the least. I wish it could just be done already.

I want…Friday 2007 #13

I want a puppy.  I’m not sure I’m ready to handle a puppy cause there are times when I can’t even take my cat, but I want a puppy.  I miss having one around.   My family was hardly ever without a dog while I was growing up.  My mom always swore she wouldn’t get another dog, but would relent after a while because I think she missed one just as much as the rest of us did.  I keep seeing all the puppies/dogs on TV and at friends’ houses, and I miss having one.

I love my cat, though there are times when I don’t like her.  But she’s not a dog.  She’s a little too independent and a lot misbehaved.  Yes, I know I’m describing every cat in existence, and I know that certain dogs can be the same way, but I want one of the breeds that’s a cute little lapdog.  One that likes to cuddle up next to you and doesn’t need your attention all the time, but wants to be close.  Yes, that means I want a small dog.  Mr. B wants a very large dog.  He’s currently stuck on the idea of a Neapolitan Mastiff.  I partial to Terriers, Malteses, etc. though I haven’t narrowed down to a specific breed because I need to look more into the traits of each.  I haven’t really been looking too hard though, cause if I find a breed I like, I’m going to want to find one.  And, no, that doesn’t mean that I’m looking for a pure-bred.  I’ll probably end up adopting from a rescue or shelter, but I’d be looking for certain breeds in the mix…and a lot of cuteness/personality.   But I really want one…

I want…Friday 2007 #12

I want to feel better again. I’ve been kind of in a rut lately. I haven’t had any motivation to do anything at all. It started with work…it just hasn’t been drawing me in for a while now. I really need a change. But it’s moved beyond work. Granted, the housekeeping thing always suffered from no motivation, but I have even less motivation to do anything at all. Even the stuff that I really can’t stand being the way it is. Seriously, there’s piles of stuff all over my house and its driving me nuts. But I don’t even really have the motivation to do things I want to do. There’s several things I want to mess around with on the computer. There’s quite a few blogs I want to write, but I don’t have the motivation.

And it’s turning physical. I haven’t slept in a good long while, so I’m always tired. That doesn’t help. Then this week I’ve been off and on feeling bad. I was fine all day today, except for a headache this morning. But now, even though I felt fine all day, I’m just feeling really icky again. I got warm and now my stomach is a bit upset. I’m weird – I get cold so easily that even when everyone else is warm, I’m freezing. But if it gets just a little too warm, I feel completely awful. I think that’s where I’m at today. Although, now that I’m cooled off again, I’m still not feeling much better yet. *sigh*

I want…Friday 2007 #11

I want a housekeeper. I don’t want to come home and see all this work needing to be done. I don’t have the energy to do the housework, so I don’t do it. But, I feel guilty about not doing it, so I don’t do other things that I know I shouldn’t be doing if the housework isn’t done. Then I start feeling bad cause I’m not doing anything at all of worth. And the worse I feel, the less energy I have to do anything. It’s a vicious cycle.

Also, Mr. B helps, but not without me asking. And, if I’m not doing something as well, there’s no way he’s going to do anything. But, we’ve already established I’m not, so he doesn’t. Plus, he’s always wanting to be doing something. We have to go out to a movie or go shopping for something or whatever. He hates just being around the house, so that doesn’t help to actually be home to do the cleaning.

So I want a housekeeper. I think I can afford that for my small house and it just seems like it would make things a lot better. I know…this is pretty easy to solve. My main hangups right now are:

1. I don’t want anyone to see my house in its current state when giving me an estimate of how often they would need to come or how much it’ll cost. Once someone’s keeping up on things, it shouldn’t get anywhere near this bad ever again.
2. I just never get around to calling. This is actually something I’m horrible about on all accounts. If there’s anything that can be fixed by a simple phone call, it won’t get done. I just don’t think about these sorts of things during normal business hours. I normally just think of them at the really bad time to call.
3. Before I can have someone clean, I need to get rid of the clutter in the way. This has been rather hard to do since a lot of stuff has to stay away from the cat to keep from being chewed up when she’s trying to get attention. The only place she can’t get to is the spare bedroom, where my dad had been staying while they were trying to move. A lot of that sorta stuff just wasn’t able to be done while he was living here. And so far, I haven’t had any time to start on the other stuff because we’ve had stuff going on all the time. But, I’m hoping to start getting to this one next weekend when things hopefully calm down a bit.

So, hopefully there’ll be a little progress down this front in the near future.

I want…Friday 2007 #10

 

(Photo courtesy of eScapesPhoto) 

I want this nice long holiday weekend to feel like it’s a longer weekend than it quite possibly will.  I know that’s a pessimistic attitude to take, but I’m hoping that between all the things that are lining up for the weekend, I’ll have some time to relax and enjoy the weekend.  I’m a little worried the weekend’s going to be gone before I know it since that’s how holiday weekends tend to be.  And, yes, some of the activities that are scheduled for this weekend are to catch up on some blog posts.  I’m not guaranteeing anything, but I’m going to try for a few posts. 

I want…Friday 2007 #9

I want to hang out with my friends from college more often. I miss the days when you could walk a few steps down the hall and hang out and we’d all just suddenly decide to do something on weekends. We’re all a bit scattered and now it takes planning to be able to see each other, so it doesn’t happen as often. Add into that all the individual lives with the various responsibilities and deadlines, and suddenly we can’t all get together anymore. I managed to go several years being able to see my college friends at any point in time things came up. But the past year, family obligations (not just my family, but also Mr. B’s family) and work have interfered to the point where I’ve hardly seen and talked to them in the past year. It’s kinda sad actually…

(Note: I did actually write this yesterday after work, but I hadn’t had time to look for a picture and it took me a little while to find one and it’s still not quite what I originally wanted, but oh well. I’m a little too OCD to post it without any picture at all. It still bothers me that #2 doesn’t have one. )

I want…Friday 2007 #8

I want my motivation back. I haven’t been motivated to do much of anything for quite some time, well except maybe read. I’ve been doing a lot of reading, but as for the rest of stuff, not so much. I’m not motivated at work. I’m not motivated to clean up my house (but really, who is?), clean out my closets, reorganize the kitchen cabinets, etc. I’m not motivated to blog, though I have quite a few topics rolling around. I haven’t even been motivated to fix my e-mail, which has been bothering me more and more, or redo the transfer of my iTunes library to the new computer so I can maintain my ratings and playlists and get the iPod set back up to normal again from when I restored it. And the one that’s bothering me the most is I haven’t been motivated to dig into 3D graphics software which I really want to play around with.

Between work wearing me down and the lack of alone time with my boyfriend always around, my dad living here temporarily and my mom visiting often, I’m just always tired and have no energy to do anything at all. Maybe once my parents get moved back here and things settle back down to “normal” I’ll start getting a bit of the motivation back, but I’m not sure that’s going to cut it. And I’m not sure what exactly to do about it. I guess its one of those things you just need to power through, but I’m not sure how considering most of the stuff that so desperately needs to be done is the crappy stuff I really don’t want to do, like dishes, vacuuming, etc.

I want…Friday 2007 #7

I want to have my computer’s e-mail working correctly. For some reason since I got my new wireless router (the old one went kaput), I’ve had trouble connecting to e-mail hosted by my ISP. The weird thing is my old computer is sometimes able to connect and sometimes isn’t, but my new computer has gotten connected once and never since. I’m thinking its not the router since the old computer sometimes connects. I would think a router problem would be more permanent – it either always connects or never connects. And what’s weirder is that I also can’t connect to the online version, though I’ve had other people try and they don’t have any problems at the same time I am. Also, I can always get connected to the online version at work. I can even have my work computer and home computers all connected at home, through my wireless router, with the work computer VPN’ed into the work system and be able to connect through the work computer, but not the home one. It’s getting pretty annoying, and I just want to figure out what’s wrong with it.

I also really want some of my grandfather’s homemade applesauce, but he never wrote down the recipe and we’ve long since run out of what he made. Store brands are close, but have never been quite the same thing. Since I ruined this one for most, if not all, of my readership during lunch, I decided to go with something else for my main “I want…Friday” post. But this one still deserved a mention.

I want…Friday 2007 #6

I want to be sitting on a beach, in a hammock, reading a good book. I want nice, warm weather, a light ocean breeze, plenty of cheery sunshine, and no responsibilities whatsoever. Yup, that sums it up nicely.

I want…Friday 2007 #5

I want to not be quite so needed at work. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice to have the job security, and it’s nice to be important, but I wish I wasn’t quite so integral to everything. (Not that I necessarily am, but everyone seems to at least think I am.) Everyone acts as if they couldn’t quite accomplish what they want if I’m involved. It’s flattering, but it also means I’m stuck. And it means that if stuff hits the fan over the weekend, they’re going to want me involved to get my opinion. Eventually, I would like to move on to something else…