Running out of steam

ScaBloPoMo has been going well so far, and, surprisingly, I’ve managed to follow the actual NaBloPoMo rules up to this point. Since I’m doing so well, I’m working really hard to keep it going. But unfortunately, after 14 days, I’m running out of steam, even though I have 13 unblogged ideas. None of them are really speaking to me at the moment though. They haven’t been speaking to me since I wrote them down. I know, it’s just words on the page, and they can’t speak to me. But you get my drift…

So there’s a bunch of thoughts rumbling around in my head today after various conversations, so today you get a snippet of my thoughts.

• I’m currently in a role that I turned down twice before being re-org’ed into it. I can do the job, but I don’t enjoy it. And, I’m not too thrilled about the long-term direction it would put me in. So I’m looking for something new, but as the possibility actually starts to develop, I’m getting more nervous. I’m not good with big changes.
• I found a couple interesting jobs available at work. I’m not really qualified for them, but they sounded interesting. Now, I gotta figure out how to learn the stuff to be qualified for them, and then hope I could work my way into them at some point. Or, I need to figure out how to convince them to take me and train me. I just want work to feel fun again like it did when I first started there, but I’m worried about going from one job I don’t like to another and then being stuck there.
• I’m coming up on my yearly evaluation. I’ve actually been trying something new this year by keeping a record of what I’ve done each month. I update it every couple of weeks and just scratch down little items about each project, even if its some of the same things as the previous month. (Yet another OCD tendency coming out.) I’m hoping this will make it much easier to write the thing this year, but I’m still not looking forward to doing it. I hate having to tell someone “Look at all the good stuff I’ve done.” Eeesh…
• I need to update my resume if I’m going to apply for any other jobs. That’s not a fun task. I think the evaluation is bad enough, I’m really not looking forward to the resume.
• I can’t wait until my vacation next week. Just wish I didn’t have to work on Saturday or it’d be starting tomorrow afternoon! I guess it’s not that bad waiting until Saturday evening for it to really kick in.

So, yeah, apparently there are a lot of thoughts about work, but that’s probably because I spent like 20 minutes perusing job postings and then figuring out what I needed to get ready in order to post for them. I just need a change.